and the first wensday and i have a lovely day with Cb. then after both of them enden work C and C came in to town and we hade a nice night. we did buy food and some drinks and when to the park to enjoy the summer night. and after that we when to the movie the proposla. and it was so good, i love it and the humor was hilarious, i was laught hard a few times. i need to buy it later.
then friday i was in town and hade lunch and a coffe with M good it was so good to see her i have mist her. i dont see her al the time, but i have mist her alot. and we always pick up wher we left of. i love it.
then saturday mu farling J was here. and it was so nice. siting in the sun and talk. and then eaten by the dam mosquitos, they bit wors back home. i promis. but it was nice and im looking forward to see my darling again. (and yes i know you read this;))
so sunday was a soft day. sis come ower for diner and it was nice. and today me and my mom wher down swiming and then doing som shoping. so the life is going on. i will see my granmother on wensday and then my K is coming on friday. lovely!!!!
Me, my life, friend events. the life of one of many that like to write. i like to write and it most times become big messes when i try to get everyting i think about out.
29 June, 2009
22 June, 2009
tooo many C
haha im not gona talk about that again. but i have to say i have goten hugs from 2 of the best C yesterday. and i got an elephant as welcome home gift. have to take a photo and put up.
but it was so nice to be home and get a hugs from them. i have realied that hugs i the best ever. because in them you can fell al the love they have for you. and still that a hug of love can be so different.
my mums are one kind wher i always fell like the little girl again. the same if it is my dad, with him im alwyas the small daughter. hugin my granmother is the hold her, to realy hug her and she will probably break, but she hug me hard back when she was here. my sister jumping up han i hold them hard, that is one hug. and when the CC come over and i was in CB arms i was home. then i was home again, i her arms are the bumbihugs and they are the most specilla ones. and also C she my darling have good hugs to. and i could fell that she hade mist me alot. as i have mist her.
and their are more of them to come. and im looking forward to them:)
but it was so nice to be home and get a hugs from them. i have realied that hugs i the best ever. because in them you can fell al the love they have for you. and still that a hug of love can be so different.
my mums are one kind wher i always fell like the little girl again. the same if it is my dad, with him im alwyas the small daughter. hugin my granmother is the hold her, to realy hug her and she will probably break, but she hug me hard back when she was here. my sister jumping up han i hold them hard, that is one hug. and when the CC come over and i was in CB arms i was home. then i was home again, i her arms are the bumbihugs and they are the most specilla ones. and also C she my darling have good hugs to. and i could fell that she hade mist me alot. as i have mist her.
and their are more of them to come. and im looking forward to them:)
21 June, 2009
home!
home in sweden again. and im happy to be home. happy that i got the hug from my family that i have wanted for a year. happy to see al and to have my dog again close.
so tursday was good. hade the last exam, and party that night, went you with the rommys and some others. dansed hade driks at CJ and it was perfect. i did not want to leav them al so friday morning was one of the worst ever. it is right up their in the top with leaving the family on arlanda when i left for oz, and to say by to the lovely poeple last semester. i hade a hard time to let A and C go. A i will miss you load. al the talk and thing, miss you load babe. and C what to say? you know what you mean to me, and i will be strang to have you so far away. but thats life. you still be close to my heart.
so after 37 h or hell i mean plain. i was home in the arm of mom and dad, the to places i alway fell home in, and the arm i can never get to much of. and then home to the house and the best ever happend. dad hade gone and got my granmother to the house. i did not have to wait any more to hug her, god it was good to be home and see her, she is the one i alway want to make proud. and to see her again was the best ever. i love my granmothter loads.
and now after 11 h och sleep ( finaly since i have not sleept for mor then 2-3 h at a time since wendsday) im wating for 2 och the C to come:P I know i have 5 but this is one of the 3 that always go together. the on wensday i will se the 3 C together. and i cant wait for it. miss al my darling and i can say no that:
what is friendship? is the best ever and to have manny of the and al over make you always have the word miss in the my vocabulary that will always be arond and a part of the meaing of friends!
so tursday was good. hade the last exam, and party that night, went you with the rommys and some others. dansed hade driks at CJ and it was perfect. i did not want to leav them al so friday morning was one of the worst ever. it is right up their in the top with leaving the family on arlanda when i left for oz, and to say by to the lovely poeple last semester. i hade a hard time to let A and C go. A i will miss you load. al the talk and thing, miss you load babe. and C what to say? you know what you mean to me, and i will be strang to have you so far away. but thats life. you still be close to my heart.
so after 37 h or hell i mean plain. i was home in the arm of mom and dad, the to places i alway fell home in, and the arm i can never get to much of. and then home to the house and the best ever happend. dad hade gone and got my granmother to the house. i did not have to wait any more to hug her, god it was good to be home and see her, she is the one i alway want to make proud. and to see her again was the best ever. i love my granmothter loads.
and now after 11 h och sleep ( finaly since i have not sleept for mor then 2-3 h at a time since wendsday) im wating for 2 och the C to come:P I know i have 5 but this is one of the 3 that always go together. the on wensday i will se the 3 C together. and i cant wait for it. miss al my darling and i can say no that:
what is friendship? is the best ever and to have manny of the and al over make you always have the word miss in the my vocabulary that will always be arond and a part of the meaing of friends!
18 June, 2009
the last one ever....
.. from australia. i have now done the last exam at jcu. i have less then 24 h in australia, of this i will get al my shit in to my bag (it was posible untill i found more stuff that need to go home). so i have to begin again. then take a shower get redy for party and have fun. no sleep or only a few hours is the plan berfore leavin for sweden.
so no to what i have done since i got down to oz.
- found my self.
- found so many new people i love
- got my diving cetificat.
- im a profestional diver
- were able to travell on my own and hade fun and found people everwhere.
- i have hade one of the best yeras ever and im happy F gave me the pappers and that i hade the courges to go here.
i will be home on saturday and after that the time will fly again!
so no to what i have done since i got down to oz.
- found my self.
- found so many new people i love
- got my diving cetificat.
- im a profestional diver
- were able to travell on my own and hade fun and found people everwhere.
- i have hade one of the best yeras ever and im happy F gave me the pappers and that i hade the courges to go here.
i will be home on saturday and after that the time will fly again!
16 June, 2009
good life is a bitch!
haha i was going to say god! life is a bitch, but i like this better. because good life is a bitch because their is so much you what to do. i know i know i talk about it al the time, but i dont want to leav my life down here. i will miss A so much. she always know what to say do make me happy, even we have over fights i can count on her to always be their. she is my darling. to leav al the poeple at uni that you get ust to see al the time. that is stange not to meet them and talk abóut nothing for 3 min. (can someone tell me why i try to type absout al the time insted of about?) and then i will miss C the 5 one (can poeple have names that start with an other letter? i mean i have 5 that are my C's that bad) besides the fact. i will miss talking to him everyday. konw that i can talk about everything, and to have someone their. i have alot of friend back home, but never i guy that can see me so much and that non of us did fall for the other one. we have no felling for the other one more the friends, good friends. so i will miss having him around. what will i do when i cant change couch, and out my head in his lap to talk about some school thing or just to avoid studying my stuff. who will i talk to befor bedtime about over old life or things that happend that day? what will i do in sweden without him? will life goes on and i have many poeple that i miss so much, that i cant what untill i get a hug from and can call them by their name to thier face i have mist to say dad and mom. and to get the welcomehug from them i have dreamd about for the longest time. nothing better then to be welcomed home by my parents. or maby the love that the dog will show is a cloes call to. to hold my dreamy is onething i want more then anyting. my dog is the one i have mist the most. because al the other i can talk to, i can see in cam, but i cant talk to my dog. i can make her smile or leter her know im still here so to have here in my arms again is something that make going home the best ever. love that thing more then many others. she is the one i know always are happy to see me. no fals smile or hug. she wants to see me.
well tell me to stop babling some time. im pathetic i know. bu thats me. and my good life can be a bitch some times!
well tell me to stop babling some time. im pathetic i know. bu thats me. and my good life can be a bitch some times!
13 June, 2009
happy!!!!
i got the best new today. one of my darlings from the us is coming to wisit me this summer. she lands the 3 of july and says utill the 22. i could not have goten better new. well if a my darling from the us could come that would be better. but still she is coming as we were talking absout for. well since she left me in oz alone.
so now the planing on what to do starts. we want to go to norway to see al in bergen, that will happen i hope. but only the fact that i can show her sweden and al their is the best ever.
no noting can brin me donw. she is coming to me:)
happy days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so now the planing on what to do starts. we want to go to norway to see al in bergen, that will happen i hope. but only the fact that i can show her sweden and al their is the best ever.
no noting can brin me donw. she is coming to me:)
happy days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
12 June, 2009
lovely day!
so the day after. first of al thank you al my lovely friedn that remember me, im so happy for al text, fb and everything. lots of love to you al!!!
and a lot of thansk to C A and T the lovely roommates i have. C made dinner A gave me a birthdaycake and T was lovely like always. so insted of making me study al night we hade a nice dinner, alot och talk and then a movie. i was in bed 12.30 a sleep maby 1-1.30 and up at 7 for exam at 8. abit hangover and tierd. and i thing i did a really good work. if that tru this will be the new tactic for a exam. drink abit the day befor adn no sleep. haha. ut otherwis the day was so good and im happy with it.
and now one exam is done so it is 3 to go and 7 days befor i leav austalia.
love love
and a lot of thansk to C A and T the lovely roommates i have. C made dinner A gave me a birthdaycake and T was lovely like always. so insted of making me study al night we hade a nice dinner, alot och talk and then a movie. i was in bed 12.30 a sleep maby 1-1.30 and up at 7 for exam at 8. abit hangover and tierd. and i thing i did a really good work. if that tru this will be the new tactic for a exam. drink abit the day befor adn no sleep. haha. ut otherwis the day was so good and im happy with it.
and now one exam is done so it is 3 to go and 7 days befor i leav austalia.
love love
11 June, 2009
that time of the years again!
geting older. feel that one more year have gone by, but this time i feel that i have done something i have become a divecon. i have followed a dream and got donw to australia adn the most importan i found my self. and know my limets better. i can thank C and B on maggi for that they pust me and got in to me that you can you can be out of air and 10 from you budy under water. but you whant that air so you will make it even if you think you cant. tyring to do it and get it bang in that you can do it. ok you can its al in you head. and i made it in every way.
so this year i have more accpted that im getin older, becasue this year i feel i have acompliseh so much. i think that have been the problem the last 5 years that i have feelt more what have i done this years? insed of now. god this was a short year adn i have done so much. this year have been flying by and i wish i could last for ever.
but ya. happy birthday to me!!!!
so this year i have more accpted that im getin older, becasue this year i feel i have acompliseh so much. i think that have been the problem the last 5 years that i have feelt more what have i done this years? insed of now. god this was a short year adn i have done so much. this year have been flying by and i wish i could last for ever.
but ya. happy birthday to me!!!!
08 June, 2009
strange...
... what time does to you. im reading old things from 04 and things i said in their.
i was talking so much absout his boy that i thought i loved. tha he was the one e.t.c and i know i never new him. that i have talk to him a few times but i was so in love that i could not see past that, and still i was talking to this nice guy on the internet and i said so many times that he is the best, i love him for the friend hi was, but i colud not be in love becasue i did not know him. how could i say that in the sentence befor that i lovede one that i did not know but not him becasue he was on the internet. i know that i did know him i just did not think that i whantent him. that was why i hurt so much later on when i brok it of. i did know what i feelt for him but i did not admit it. intressing to se what i said befor and feel today.
the boy i loved i dont talk to at al, have taking him awy from everyplace and i dont really care absout him.
the other one i said bye to and brok if of when i hade grown up. he is back now and i dont know what happen. but is still strange how i have chagne. adn to read ti really makes me see how much have happend the last years. and also the sorrow i feel ower have said that the girl in the prevoius bloggs that she was on of the ones i could not see my lifte without here, and now i dont see how it can work out between us. i will try, but i can see it happen now. i can see how it can get solved.
but that is a later problem. now it is tha exams and coming home i have to focus on.
i was talking so much absout his boy that i thought i loved. tha he was the one e.t.c and i know i never new him. that i have talk to him a few times but i was so in love that i could not see past that, and still i was talking to this nice guy on the internet and i said so many times that he is the best, i love him for the friend hi was, but i colud not be in love becasue i did not know him. how could i say that in the sentence befor that i lovede one that i did not know but not him becasue he was on the internet. i know that i did know him i just did not think that i whantent him. that was why i hurt so much later on when i brok it of. i did know what i feelt for him but i did not admit it. intressing to se what i said befor and feel today.
the boy i loved i dont talk to at al, have taking him awy from everyplace and i dont really care absout him.
the other one i said bye to and brok if of when i hade grown up. he is back now and i dont know what happen. but is still strange how i have chagne. adn to read ti really makes me see how much have happend the last years. and also the sorrow i feel ower have said that the girl in the prevoius bloggs that she was on of the ones i could not see my lifte without here, and now i dont see how it can work out between us. i will try, but i can see it happen now. i can see how it can get solved.
but that is a later problem. now it is tha exams and coming home i have to focus on.
06 June, 2009
happy
if you are following thhis bloog you will have seen the last one, but dont worry im fine! sometimes i have to write of whats on my minde to let i go, so im good now after talking it of my mind. it has to be sortet and that will poabaly happen when i get home. but that day i was so irretated with it al and need to let i go to handel other things in my lift. it is stille their, and talking to some about it have made me go ower it and geting angry about that.
but i will handle that when i get home not much i can to about that here.
so im happy because im now a dive control speciallist. that means dive maste for most people. so the work on maggi is ower. but im happy i feel that im a better diver and that i have learnd alot.
the count down on flying home is on to. have 2 weeks left and dont want to. well i want to but still not. it is so much i want to but i dont. im looking forward to coming home to the family and al the friends. even their is some thing to deal with im want to be in moms and dads arms again!
but i will handle that when i get home not much i can to about that here.
so im happy because im now a dive control speciallist. that means dive maste for most people. so the work on maggi is ower. but im happy i feel that im a better diver and that i have learnd alot.
the count down on flying home is on to. have 2 weeks left and dont want to. well i want to but still not. it is so much i want to but i dont. im looking forward to coming home to the family and al the friends. even their is some thing to deal with im want to be in moms and dads arms again!
04 June, 2009
I dont know...
is it realy worth it? my head is spining with these qusetiosn about you and me. should i wokr on it? will it be what we whant.
i explain what i feel and have felt for the last 3 years, the reaction *why are we friends then?* i dont know if it is worth talking about, the reaction to maby a bad explaning letter tells alot. i mean, i told the things i was feeling what so bad with that? yes it was the hole tru and nothing but that and i can hurt. but if we are friends the reaction should not be why are we friends it should be how did this happen. why did it become lite this. or im i wrong? it was my fault i did not shwo my self becasue i was afriad to do that to not be acceptet for that gild because of the hint of how i was.
but no more. i love the onw i am. i will try to sort this out, but i will not change back. the one i am to day is girl i love. and she will stay, though i can see my life with out you. you are still the major reason i am who i am. that is what is so strange. that the one making me in to who i am to today dont even know me. how did this happen?
well see what happens, but what i know is that i will stay as i am. i do care if you like her or not. but i will not changes. like me or not i will stay as the one i am today, a stronger and more happy girl.
and i know if i los that now. i have to many other that will skream at me. well should stop hear. have to go to maggi tomorrow, and it is most likely my last day.
over and out!
i explain what i feel and have felt for the last 3 years, the reaction *why are we friends then?* i dont know if it is worth talking about, the reaction to maby a bad explaning letter tells alot. i mean, i told the things i was feeling what so bad with that? yes it was the hole tru and nothing but that and i can hurt. but if we are friends the reaction should not be why are we friends it should be how did this happen. why did it become lite this. or im i wrong? it was my fault i did not shwo my self becasue i was afriad to do that to not be acceptet for that gild because of the hint of how i was.
but no more. i love the onw i am. i will try to sort this out, but i will not change back. the one i am to day is girl i love. and she will stay, though i can see my life with out you. you are still the major reason i am who i am. that is what is so strange. that the one making me in to who i am to today dont even know me. how did this happen?
well see what happens, but what i know is that i will stay as i am. i do care if you like her or not. but i will not changes. like me or not i will stay as the one i am today, a stronger and more happy girl.
and i know if i los that now. i have to many other that will skream at me. well should stop hear. have to go to maggi tomorrow, and it is most likely my last day.
over and out!
03 June, 2009
bad bad girl
I did i again. not write here for a few days. but it is not that much going on. talk to C on skype, miss you my darling så have a wounderfull time wiht mommy now and i see you in 2.5 weeks.
so what am i going? i' finsihing of my divecon on maggi. is a past the examorrow it would be lovely. so on saturday i hop to be done with it al and be a diveprfesional. im loing for that moment. and it is so close.
other than that, im missing everyone and the closer i get to comming home the more i can feel it. i want a hug from al of my darling. and speeking about that. i hope that it work out and that you K are coming to S and me. that would be on of the best things happening for me beside seing everyone at home.
well need to pratis a lecure now. but i will try to write here again soo..
lots of love to al!!!!
so what am i going? i' finsihing of my divecon on maggi. is a past the examorrow it would be lovely. so on saturday i hop to be done with it al and be a diveprfesional. im loing for that moment. and it is so close.
other than that, im missing everyone and the closer i get to comming home the more i can feel it. i want a hug from al of my darling. and speeking about that. i hope that it work out and that you K are coming to S and me. that would be on of the best things happening for me beside seing everyone at home.
well need to pratis a lecure now. but i will try to write here again soo..
lots of love to al!!!!
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