strange...

... what time does to you. im reading old things from 04 and things i said in their.
i was talking so much absout his boy that i thought i loved. tha he was the one e.t.c and i know i never new him. that i have talk to him a few times but i was so in love that i could not see past that, and still i was talking to this nice guy on the internet and i said so many times that he is the best, i love him for the friend hi was, but i colud not be in love becasue i did not know him. how could i say that in the sentence befor that i lovede one that i did not know but not him becasue he was on the internet. i know that i did know him i just did not think that i whantent him. that was why i hurt so much later on when i brok it of. i did know what i feelt for him but i did not admit it. intressing to se what i said befor and feel today.
the boy i loved i dont talk to at al, have taking him awy from everyplace and i dont really care absout him.
the other one i said bye to and brok if of when i hade grown up. he is back now and i dont know what happen. but is still strange how i have chagne. adn to read ti really makes me see how much have happend the last years. and also the sorrow i feel ower have said that the girl in the prevoius bloggs that she was on of the ones i could not see my lifte without here, and now i dont see how it can work out between us. i will try, but i can see it happen now. i can see how it can get solved.

but that is a later problem. now it is tha exams and coming home i have to focus on.